Each of us has to struggle through some dense clouds in our lives on earth. Read the Psalms and draw some comfort from the fact that the ancients felt the same way. Those times are part of our journey and help us grow more than we might ever realize.
God has a plan for your life and He won’t let go of you. Keep praying and keep checking to see if He’s near regardless of how you feel. You’ll soon discover that He’s been with you all along.
God is waiting there to help you and to heal you. He is there standing in the light and will shine it on you to direct your path.